Friday, December 7, 2012
Lucky Leftie Fetus
Ever since I could remember, I always slept on the left side of the bed, on my left side, in a fetal position. My left arm would be near my head sometimes, but mostly under my head beside it. Then my right arm would be on top of the blanket or on my left arm. My body would always be curled up, my knees bent as if I were in fetal position. I was always comfortable in this condition, and I never slept on my right or on my back. Of course, I woke up with my left arm feeling like pins and needles, but it was usually worth it. The only time I would sleep on my back or on my right side is if I was sick. I would always get nauseous or get vertigo and sit my pillows up right and sleep in a upright position for the rest of the night. I never slept on my back because I'm a bit overweight and my body fat from my abdomen, like sinks in or just lays on top of me and I feel like I could suffocate at night and I could feel it sink inside me, just pushing on me. So, I slept on my side. I've slept on my left side for years. I tried sleeping on my right side, but somehow that just made me dizzy and I could feel the room spinning, or sometimes feel like my eyes would roll into my head. I just stuck to sleeping on my left side. I would always sleep on the left side of the bed too, never the right side, and I only slept in the middle is I were sick. I only slept on the right side when there was a wall near it, but I would still lay on my left side. I was always scared of something touching my back during the night, so somtimes I would freak out if my pillow touched my back. So, I always had my back to the wall when it was on the right side. It was harder when my bed was facing the other way. I wanted my back touching the wall, but then I would have to lay on my right side. My bed right now has no walls touching it except the headboard. The left side of my bed is facing my dresser and the small flat screen tv (I mean small) above the dresser. The bed isn't too close to the dresser so I won't hit my head in the night. I may sleep in one position but my head moves a lot. It would stay with my body, look straight ahead, or sometimes a little bit to the right. I told my Art Club mate that I slept on my left side on the left side of my bed, and she told me that it was good luck sleeping on the left side. I don't believe in good or bad luck. Since I was born on Friday the 13th, people have been freaking out. They called my the "Bad Luck Baby," back in elementary school. I don't sleep on the left side because it's good luck, I just been sleeping like that ever since I was like a small child. I like the left side, and I like sleeping on my left side. The fetal position confuses me though. I'm still scared of the dark a bit, so I'm guessing the fetal position makes me feel safer. I also had other weird things when I was sleeping. If an object was hanging above me and I think that's it unstable, I changed to the foot of the bed. I never let any part of my body (legs, arms, feet, toes) stick out of my blanket. It wasn't because I was cold I always believed sometime would grab me. I still fear that would happen. I NEVER let my arms hang off the bed. I'm still scared that something hides under my bed. I never look around when it's dark. I refuse to touch or look at the right side of the bed when I'm about to fall asleep. I fear that something will appear on that side. So, those are my sleeping/bed flaws. Do you think the left side of the bed is lucky? And you have anything (flaws, lucky things, whatever) that you do before or after bed?
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